Seaweed: On the Move

Moving too much; doing too much; and feeling like it isn't enough.  It's who I am.  It has taken me a long time

Touching people by giving them some space.  These people fall in my sweet spot.  I'm not effective when I try to direct the actions of other.  A.A. is not the military.

It used to be that quiet scared me.  I didn't know what to do if I wasn't active.  I think that I perceived stillness and inactivity as laziness and when I was able to finally slow down a little bit my whole outlook on life and my overly optimistic schedule began to change.  I've discovered peace and contentment in listening to music, taking walks, talking with friends.  My constant busyness was an effort to find this peace and contentment outside of myself instead of discovering well-being inside myself.  

I find value in the most difficult of circumstances.  I find the answers to the mysteries of my life in what I don't do well.  In the places of my struggles and vulnerabilities.   Difficulties and weaknesses often lead me to the very thing I need to learn.