The joy of giving. The joy of living outside of one's self. Initially when I gave my time or money to someone I did it as a task. I did it because I was told that it was the right thing to do. I didn't feel a ton of satisfaction. I still mentally stored away the good deed so that if it wasn't returned then I could brand the ingrate as an asshole. Today, it's internalized and I just do it as a natural part of who I am. I don't analyze how it makes me feel because I know it is increasing my self-esteem. Today I'm able to take true pleasure in the good fortune of others. This is something that still surprises me, that I'm able to be happy for someone else.
When something isn't going my way today my reaction is immediate - search for a solution and fix the problem. I want to overcome what I see as a difficulty rather than see how it fits into the ebb and flow of my life and spiritual development.
Act well. Speak well. Think well. Finally, I'm well.
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