In Retrospect

Retrospect:    Consideration of past times (official definition).
                        Looking back at what I've worried about and realizing what a colossal waste of                             time it was.

Traveling really re-emphasizes the importance of being on the winning side of the ancient alcoholic existential battle between Acceptance and Expectations.  The foe battling peace of mind is worthy, strong, and relentless.  It wants to disappoint me.  Quiet Acceptance is every bit its equal but it doesn't waste much time shouting to make itself heard.  It needs to be nurtured. Expectations doesn't need any help at all.

I'm a guy who really likes to pack a lot of accomplishments into a day, to see and do everything, and to have it all be Fantastic! and to have it all run smoothly and without a hitch.  I want to do it Right!

And then I maneuver the trains, trams, planes, streets, ticket kiosks, and security apparatus of 3 or 4 different countries.  What I want to see and do often disappoints and what I stumble across unexpectedly thrills me in equal measure.  I don't have to see and do everything or anything in particular.  It all works out fine in the long run.  It is always a waste of time worrying about the future.

I'm going to stand out on my balcony this morning and throw $50 bills into the street to get ready for my day.