Space Between My Thoughts

"Today I still enjoy getting the approval of others, but I am not willing to pay the price I used to pay to get it.  I will not bend myself into a pretzel to get others to like me.  If I get your approval, that's fine; but if I don't, I will survive without it.  I need to feel a strong and helpful sense of myself.  Such an awareness doesn't happen overnight, and no one's self-awareness is permanent."

A.A. Daily Reflections

I used to be an egomaniac with an inferiority complex.  Today, I'm an egomaniac with a superiority complex.  I said that at a meeting today.  I thought it was clever and totally hilarious.  A couple of twitters.  Maybe a chuckle or a chortle or two but that was it.  Cretins.  I will not dumb down my wit and sink to the level of my audience. 

Or maybe it wasn't that funny.  Maybe that's it.

"With awareness, we realize there is a deep silence that exists behind all of those voices, in that space between thoughts."

Toltecs

I love the imagery of a space between my thoughts.  I love the imagery of all those voices.  They're talking all the time but not into between my thoughts.

"Yet many of us are waiting for some goal to be reached, some status to be attained before we can begin enjoying our lives.  We say things to ourselves like, 'I will be happy when I get this job/accumulate this amount of money/have this relationship.'  There is nothing wrong with wanting to attain or achieve certain things, but if we make our  happiness conditional on reaching certain destination points, our life will become a series of goals to obtain, with each one failing to deliver the  promise of happiness we envisioned.  Happiness can only be found in the present moment, not at some imaginary place in the future."

Toltecs