Worry

Worry: To feel distressed in the mind; be anxious, troubled, or uneasy.

I never imagine that things are going to work out well. It would be a great improvement for me if I could envision a moderately OK future. Most of the time I think that everything is going to be a train wreck. I wake up expecting the worst. I stop for a cup of coffee and drift off into an unpleasant reverie. I walk down the street distracted with visions of disaster. What is going wrong? What do I have to worry about? Sometimes I'll try to find the source of any free floating anxiety that is furrowing my brow, and nothing will come up. I'm worried and I have no idea what I'm worried about. And that really gets me to worrying. Maybe I have a new disease or malignant brain tumor that causes me to worry all of the time.


Sometimes I run into naturally happy people. They're always in a good mood, big smiles on their faces, songs in their heart. They just figure that things are going to work out. They understand that they will be able to handle whatever comes their way. These people are freaks of nature. These people are totally unbalanced. I can't think of the mental stress that they must be under to be happy all of the time. They must have huge brain tumors to suppress all of their worry centers.

And we wonder why the word "insanity" appears in the Second Step.