Arrogant Asses All Around Me

I'm in the habit of exchanging messages with a lot of people.  Frankly, I'm a lot better at it than most people are - the curse of the introvert who is in a Program that stresses not thinking about myself all of the time.  I suck at this but I work at it, too.  Every now and then I run into a friend or two - often people that I love dearly and with a great intensity - that gets my competitive juices running in the "I know more than you do" department.  This is a shitty department.  They should close this department and transfer everyone to Customer Relations or something, a department where they might be able to do some actual good.

From time to time I delete people from my phone's saved-people list.  If a name is on the list I'm tempted to interact with the individual associated with said name - I forget how irritated I was when I actually deleted the name from the list.  I think: "It will be different this time."  This has almost nothing to do with the person, regrettably, and a lot to do with me.  It's not even a bad quality, per se, staying in touch with people who aren't as good as staying in touch as I am. Hey, maybe they don't want to stay in touch with me; but I prefer to think that they're on to other things.  It's less malicious that way.

I had a furiously passive-aggressive interchange with a dear old friend recently.  This is not unheard of with this guy.  He's another example of the kind of people I meet in The Fellowship all of the time - talented, smart, tireless, someone who has a long history of setting goals and then achieving them.  While this is another good thing it can also be a bad thing.  SuperK accuses me of never saying "I'm sorry."  I think that it's more a case of me having made my mind up that I can solve some problem or arrange some situation to my liking, and I'm loath to divert from this path.  It can be a terrible path.  I'd be better off on another path but I have it in my head that this is the path.

He is having some problems that are entirely of his own making, in my opinion.  He has a situation that isn't to his liking and he's trying to arrange everyone and everything so that it IS to his own liking.  Good luck with that.  I'm 6,000 miles away and I can see that he's not going to get his way.  He disagrees and somewhat dismissively, being an arrogant ass like me.  I really had to bite my tongue. 

It hurth when I bite down.