Ball o' Confusion!

Contradict:  To be contrary; go against.


I am a perfectionist.  I get a lot done and I do much of it well but I'm never satisfied with anything once I'm finished.  I am a man who tends to the dark side.  I'm not especially uncomfortable there, either.  It can be an oddly satisfying place to hang out with all of the doom and fog and heavy metal chords.  I have a lot of energy; this is a politically correct way to say that I'm restless.  We're not going to discuss irritability and dis-contentedness at the moment.  I'm self-absorbed but I listen well.  I have a lot of empathy for other people - not sympathy, which is a condescending word - but empathy.  I feel their pain even though I don't care what happens to them unless it then affects me in a way that I don't like. THEN I care.  I'm pretty calm until I start throwing punches and hurling  invective.  I believe in a god or series of gods; unfortunately, I think that many of them are me.  I exercise and read and think overly much about myself, worrying that I won't get what I want or that I'll lose something that I already have.  I don't worry much about the future where terrible things are going to happen to me and those that I love;  I'm at peace with the past as I lay awake at night and worry about all of the bridges that I burned behind me, returning occasionally to bomb and dynamite the rubble.  I'm happy and gloomy and positive and negative.


Ball o' confusion!  That's what the world is today!