Will: To want or to choose; a person's determination, choice, or desire in a particular situation.
Willpower: Control exerted to do something or restrain impulses.
Admit: To concede as true; to acknowledge or assent to, as an allegation it is impossible to deny. (Concede means to yield or to make a concession . . . so when we're "admitting" we're powerless there is a strong whiff of begrudging resistance - we're not doing anything willingly, even in that oh-so-crucial First Step.)
I enjoy the visual of "restraining impulses." That was me: all impulse and no restraint. If I wanted to do it I did it - and immediately because I didn't want to have to listen to that part of my brain that was wondering if this was such a good idea.
"We admitted we were powerless over alcohol, that our lives had become unmanageable."
"I know nothing! I know nottttthhhhhing!!" Sergeant Schultz
I'm noodling these forces of will and willpower. The concepts are very interesting. The idea that I have to make choices and exert myself while understanding that the outcomes are not something that I can control and should be something that I accept, especially as I continue to see that I'm going to be well taken care of in the long run.
In the short run? That can get a little dicey.
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