Hole in the Sky

Awake:  To rouse from sleep; wake; hence, to rouse from inactivity; activize.


We talked about "spiritual experience" in this morning's meeting.  The passage about the importance of a spiritual experience that the chairperson read is found in the chapter "There Is A Solution," which should be a solid clue as to the importance of said spiritual experience.  The discussion revolved around the circumstances which would indicate, or at least suggest, the occurrence of a spiritual awakening.  The popular hope seemed to be for the big, dramatic variety of spiritual experience, where the earth shakes and the sea parts and the sky is rent in two, the rent quickly filling with angels and gods and other singing beings.  The actual experience of the group was more along the lines of a steady if unspectacular awakening.  This can be very frustrating for the Big Ego crowd.  We like earthquakes and flocks of angels singing to us and us alone.


So much of my experience in recovery revolves around making progress even when I don't know I'm making any progress.  One day I'll decide to look back into the past and think: "Huh.  I've changed."  This is why I continue to hitch up my britches and go to work on my recovery every day.  I figure that I'm making progress even when I don't think I'm making any progress.