Tote That Barge.

Carry: To be a medium for the transmission of.

We talked about the "carrying the message" part of The 12th Step at today's meeting. I'm pretty dramatic about everything under the sun so I see no good reason why I shouldn't be dramatic when it comes to carrying the message. I figure if I can't help a hundred drunks all at once -- not help them, save their souls -- then I can't be bothered. I'm a big picture guy as long as I'm the only guy in the picture.


When I was new I traveled all the time for my job. I tried to go to a meeting every day even when I was out of town because, believe me, I needed to go. Every now and then I'd show up at a church and no one would be there. I didn't need great sobriety or even good sobriety to be at the meeting -- I just needed asses in the seats and a cup of coffee. I needed someone to listen to me unwind the tiresome minutia of all of the drama and tragedy I thought I had in my life.

It doesn't have to be dramatic. I usually don't even know when I've helped someone or put them to sleep. Show up, shake some hands, talk when I have something to say and keep my mouth shut when I don't , which is most of the time.

It's so hard to be this humble.