More AND Different

Discontent: Lack of contentment; dissatisfaction; restless desire for something more or different.

When I take a look at what I've written over the last few years I have to laugh. There is definitely a dark tone that bubbles to the surface, despite the jokey veneer and sarcastic asides. I'm actually a fairly happy person. Mind you, I'm not always a contented person. All that prayer and meditation has certainly made me more contented, just not totally contented. I don't think that's ever going to change. I think I've gone from being restless, irritable, and discontented to just being restless. I'm never going to sit down and contemplate my navel. I'm always going to wonder what's around the corner.

I was the kid who could see the evil potential in everything. I grew up in a family that was always warning me that something could go HORRIBLY WRONG! They would have found something to be depressed about if they won the lottery. I was the one poking my stick in the dark hole, not chasing butterflies in the sunny meadow drenched in morning dew. I wanted to find the monsters, or at least imagine what they looked like. I could see the tragedy in life, not the comedy, unless it was tragic, dark comedy.

Nothing went HORRIBLY WRONG! today now that I think about it.