Sociopath (anti-social personality disorder): A personality disorder marked by antisocial disorder, a pervasive pattern of disregard for and violation of the rights of others . . .
I don't remember my dreams very often. This may be because my repressed self is a ball of screaming gibberish, populated by horrible, horrible things. Or it may be normal. In any case I generally sleep well. This may be because my mind is resting peacefully or maybe because I'm a sociopath who is willing to sacrifice all other people, places, and things if it spares me any discomfort.
That sounds about right.
In my dream I was in some huge pool complex that seemed to be associated with a high school. Not my high school and I was as old as I am now so I don't know what I was doing back in high school. In many of my remembered dreams I show up for classes, often at college, a week or two after classes have . . . you know . . . started. I don't have the books, I don't know where my class is being held, I haven't read or studied anything, and I'm scheming on how to get out of this mess.
I'm no psychologist but it seems that a lot of stuff that comes out of my subconscious is about control. That and trying to weasel my way out of whatever mess of my own making I'm currently embroiled in.
Anyway, I'm wandering around this large school-like structure, noting that the pool is full of people who aren't "doing it right," who shouldn't be there, then popping into massive locker rooms where I vaguely suspect my clothes - my other clothes, I guess, since I'm fully clothed - are locked up somewhere. It really doesn't matter because I don't have a key or anything. I also have to pee and am incensed that the urinals and stalls are just hanging right out in the fucking open. At this point the school sort of morphs into this ornate shopping mall, one of the sort that would be called an Emporium or a Galleria or contain words that have superfluous "E"s hanging off the end, like "Towne Centre."
Maybe I need to buy something.
Wednesday, October 2, 2019
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