Bump and Grind

Grind:  To move with much difficulty or friction.

My first couple of years of sobriety was a grind, more or less.  It was an example of constant, sustained effort.  I don't want to suggest that I was miserable and unhappy - although I was that, indeed, from time to time - or that things weren't improving . . . just that my initial reactions to things weren't positive very often.  I overreacted to minor offenses and episodes and I tossed any sense of gratitude under the bus more often than not.

The arc of sobriety is long but it bends toward justice.  Martin Luther Seaweed

"Habit of thought is more important than will."  

Ah, yes, the fallacy of willpower.  It gets me far but it only gets me so far and it didn't get me far enough with alcohol and drugs.