"We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness."
Freedom: The state of not being imprisoned or enslaved.
So I've always liked the idea of wearing the world like a loose garment. This is an image that makes sense to me - being engaged with life but not trying to control it. Floating down the creek. Paddling, sure, but following the course of the stream. I was always turning the canoe around and trying to shoot the rapids in reverse. Shooting the rapids while heading downstream isn't always the best idea but I was the guy trying to will my canoe over large rocks and waterfalls while paddling furiously in the wrong direction. Now I try to see where the river is going. I'm present but only moderately in charge.
This is my freedom.
Happy: Having a feeling arising from a consciousness of well-being or of enjoyment; enjoying good of any kind, such as comfort, peace, or tranquility.
I used to put a lot of pressure on myself to be happy. In my mind's eye being happy meant having fun. Sometimes it meant not experiencing pain. In never crossed my mind that happiness was a peaceful feeling of well-being. I was looking for exciting happy, not tranquil happy. I wanted to be the dude having a fucking great time, not the dude sitting quietly, contentedly.
Content: Satisfied.
Satisfied. Not euphoric. Satisfied. I know, I know, it sounds boring but it works surprisingly well.
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