Chaos, Baby

Chaos:  A behavior . . . in which arbitrarily small variations in conditions become magnified over time.

In other words . . . the shit that we get away with when we're starting out on our abnormal drinking careers start to catch up with us.

"Prevented by his habit from living a constructive life, he is unconsciously anxious to make a stir in the world, even though this stir is of a purely destructive nature.  Anything is better than oblivion, and so all the fuss that is made about him, as well as the fact that he is a 'serious problem,' is not as distasteful to him as he may imagine."  Richard Peabody

By the way Peabody was one of the first to state on the record that there was no cure for alcoholism.  He had a big effect on Bill W as he was formulating Alcoholics Anonymous.

"I don't care if you like me or if you hate me as long as you're thinking about me."  Stevie Seaweed.

Enough talk about me - what do you think about me?

KAOS was the archenemy of CONTROL, a secretive but inept government agency in "Get Smart."

Alcoholics love chaos.  We've lived in worlds marked by chaos.  So when we get sober at the start we're attracted to situations and people and places and things that keep the chaos rolling along.  Calmness is boring.  I'm not opposed to pain as long as I feel like I'm really living.